DISAPPEAR

Looks like my thoughts were in turmoil. What I see nothing like reality. I made a mistake on my work. I am very sad about this situation. I hope all this does not happen in the next life. I always thought I could not be happier. I was very lonely and utterly alone. if time could go back I miss the time when I did not think about money and women. Both are very painful. Every time I think about it just a headache I get. The woman who I thought would be my friend, now gone. when I was with the rain I think I'm drowning in my tears. I feel like a crazy person who does not have a goal, but kept walking. Perhaps this is the hardest time for me to come to terms with reality. If I saw her picture, I feel tightness of the chest. I do not know anymore, what should I do. I feel no passion for tomorrow. Maybe I'll smoke again and forget everything.